Anyone who know me would not be surprised to hear the title of this post and picture me turning around on some road, miles from where I meant to be. That is sort of how my mind feels right now. My mother passed away on June 8, and I feel like my mind is reeling with thoughts I can't organize. She had been ill and in and out of hospitals and nursing homes since mid February. So I guess I have been wandering for months.
I think if things I need to do, and then just the thought of them starts feeling overwhelming. For example, I almost never post to blogs without adding photos, but I poked around a little bit looking for one, then decided it was too hard to decide which photo to use.
Oh! I just thought of a photo I can add- I have not really been doing much in terms of creative crafting, but I have been knitting, since that is mostly (for me at least) following patterns written by someone else. So I made this shawl, called Travelling Woman, for a dear friend. (It will only be 2 months late by the time I give it to her!)
I have also been working on some cool socks called Jaywalkers, which I hope will fit me once they are done. Because I was working on them at the nursing home sitting with Mom, I did not measure as I went and made the leg part way too long, so now I have ordered another skein of yarn in order to have enough to finish.As part of trying to be kind to myself and let myself heal, I have left the mistakes in both these projects, rather than beating myself up and ripping them out because they are not perfect. I know my friend will grant me the grace of ignoring my mistakes as only a true friend can.
I have a big sewing project to work on for a family member (once I set aside the fabric I had pulled from my stash to make something for my mom) and I want to make some items for a few swaps in a fiber art group I am part of. I am hoping that will spark me back to feeling creative again and not just lost.